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Diamond Bud
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You pick up the rag hanging off the edge of the basin and dip it into the tub. You can feel something like an indication of temperature, not the wetness itself but an awareness of the water's existence. You swirl the cloth, watching it absently. Outside, there's a soft thump as Yve slides down onto the floor, head leaning against the bathroom door. You wonder if she's crying.
You wash yourself with the wet rag, going over your face, hands, chest. You stop at the hole in your torso, unsure of what to do with it.
Gently, as if touched by some sort of strange impulse, you press a finger into the flesh.
It doesn't hurt. You don't feel surprise- you don't feel anything, really- just an absence, like you know there should be a sensation accompanying this, but there isn't. The dark, almost purple red of the wound is wet by itself, slippery, soft tubes giving way beneath your hand. There's a sort of absent horror somewhere in the back of your mind, a knowledge that there's something wrong about this situation, but there's a haze separating you from it, pushing the thought away, cloudy and grey. Your fingers close around the end of a broken rib. Solid. There's no pain, barely anything at all. Solid, soft, slippery- malleable then almost liquid, then something like the sticky threads of a spider's web, catching on your skin. You press your hand against the skin of your stomach from the inside, and then the wrongness finally comes through. It's overwhelming and cold, like a blade through skin- painless, precise but horrifying, horrifying horrifying awful awful awfulawfulAWFUL- you jerk back your hand with a splatter of blood.
You wash your hands in the basin, this time with soap, and you try not to look at the pink whorls that appear on the surface of the water.
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